My new favorite costume and photo! the outfit is very stretchy and form fitting for me, I will be buying a few other color versions of it. Normally each type of costume only look good for a certain body type. For me, anything with mini skirt that show off the legs and mid section will look good, but bare shoulder dresses or teddy don’t look as good. This is one of the lessons a TS/CD needs to learn, find what fits their body. The stockings are gifts from someone who loves stockings, turns out they look amazing on photo~ I will try wearing more shinny stockings in the future.
People have been getting anxious to see my new videos. There will be more coming after I move I promise~ The moving won’t start until late March the earliest, and I will still be available until then. Hopefully everything can be done within a week or two once it starts, exciting times. I will be adding a wish list for some items I may need for the new place soon. Sharing links have been added below every page too, feel free to link to your social media if you want. Oh yes, I will give a quick tour of the new place too. I will also be starting live cam shows once I settle in my new place, more room makes a lot of things possible. Porn is also a possibility, but I will start with solo stuff and see how it looks. All of the links will be added on this site, so once something is out, you will see it added right here.
So a lot of people have asked me if China is less accepting of the whole trans idea vs the US. In general, most Asian communities have a lot more “old school” mind sets that do not fit into western life style or even fit with the modern times. Things like eating a certain types of food during certain holidays are fun, but others like “Everyone needs at least one male child to keep the family name” becomes heavy burdens on people. So new ideas like LGBT were not even widely known until recently. However, most of the hardcore close minded conservatives grew up in the propaganda era, and their influence is diminishing as time pass. The younger generation are very open minded, the 90- and 00- gen are very in-tune with western trends like hipster culture, hiphop, and LGBT issues. So the society on average see trans as exotic and taboo, going to Thailand for the ladyboy shows is quite popular during the golden week long holidays. (It’s a thing in both China and Japan to work the scheduling magic and combine days off into a week long national vacation.)
Modern make up and plastic surgery also help a lot. Like I always say, the world is unfair. The same person can quickly change their mind about trans issues based on how passable you are. It sounds judgmental but it makes sense, people fear unknowns. A more passable trans person will appear more familiar to people so their fear goes away. Also similar to south american TV, the Chinese TV is filled with soap and drama. Trans person getting onto talent shows quickly become a trend when Harisu(하리수/河莉秀) first exploded in south Korean media. The key word is “伪娘”, aka “trap”, meaning fake lady. You would see one on TV getting 15 minutes of fame. Because of this, even the most old school people are getting use to it. (also the tradition of old school Beijing opera only cast male to crossdress female roles helped a bit.)
However, people only like to watch and talk about trans, they normally don’t like it when it’s their own family member they have to deal with. It’s the opposite of the US actually. People in China would talk about it when it’s all fun and games, but turn old school close minded when they have to deal with one in person. Where in the US from my experience, people would avoid talking about trans in front of their friends and family, while secretly love it behind close doors. I simply pick and choose the people that are ok with me to associate with, while working hard to avoid dealing with anyone who are not. This way, both societies are no different from my personal point of view, since I will be surrounded by the same type of people. Good way to keep myself happy.
For those of you who don’t know, this new photo is based on the character babydoll from the movie sucker punch. Yes, the movie didn’t have a real plot, it was just a few anime fan service -esq fantasy scenes stringed together. Go ahead and google “babydoll sucker punch”, you will see what I mean. I love it myself ~wink wink~ had a hard time keeping things tucked under the skirt.
I have been approached by people all the time asking why I don’t do more cosplays, since I already look like some characters like bayonetta. Well, I don’t really consider this “cosplay” but rather similar themed fan-service photo. The reason is mixed. First of all, the hard-core cosplay community is harsh. Anyone dare classify their photo “cosplay” is subject to instant criticism like “not enough effort”, “costume and props not hand made”, “too fat”, “too skinny”, “don’t look like the original character”, “trying too hard”, “too sexy eww lewd” and yup, the vocal side of the community is mostly consist of women. The standard on real cosplay photos is very strange. The not-so-good ones gets laughed at on forums on a daily basis, and the good ones mostly likely professional models like Jessica Nigri and Francesca Dani gets “slut shamed” by jealous individuals. Yes, I am over-generalizing a bit, but take a quick peak on cosplay forums you will see the pattern over and over again.
Secondly, it’s not worth it. Most of the cosplay community are kids still going to school, they have tons of free time to pursue this hobby which they also can afford to dump plenty of allowance money into. Each cosplay require a whole set of dedicated costume and accessories that can cost up to $1000 per set, and you need to keep coming up with new sets to keep people interested. All of the professional cosplayer have at least 10 to 20 complete costume sets. Yes, I have a lot of costumes myself, but most of them are simple store bought ones that require no time and effort to make and cost less than $50 each. In the end, the only people that can make any amount of money out of this are the costume makers and the professional models who also use their fame to host and sell other things on the side. Just like the only sure way to make money in the music industry is to sell instruments to the hopeful.
For me, it’s hard enough to take attractive photos and eventually restart making videos as a trans person. I’d rather cater to the fans who enjoy me and my work as is, instead of going for a new demographic by risking more time and money invesments. My personal standard on cosplay/ modeling photos is simply “does it look good”. Intricate steam punk outfit? Great! Sexy version of movie characters? Yes~! Someone making a cheap store bought Halloween costume look good? Why not! To quote the gladiator meme “Are You Not Entertained?” if so, then shut up and enjoy.
Happy Chinese New Year everyone~ ! Had to wear something with red color this time. This year will be “horse” of the 12 zodiac signs. People always wonder if the year is their own sign around this time. The simple method is multiply 12 with a natural number, all of the answers are the age when you would run into your own zodiac year, like 12, 24, 36, 48, 60, and 72. Personally, I don’t follow any of the traditions aside from wearing red for celebration since I’m far away from family. It was all meant to repel bad luck and mythical monsters, including the red dress, fire works and money filled red envelopes. On second thought… I’m actually very traditional, so go ahead and send me red envelopes please~ ^__^
So I went to a strip club for the first time a little while ago. I was wearing almost the same set as the photo below, except with black stockings on. The club is known for better looking girls but down side is some of them can be a little pushy. Honestly I didn’t know what I was excepting. The bouncer at the door seem to be overly nice, guess they don’t see “female” customers there often. The inside is similar to most other clubs in the area, an old warehouse turned into a cool looking loft with glass stairs linking the girls’ resting area on top and the main floor. New girls would come down for every song, and join the main floor to talk to customers after their dance. Many of the girls have the “serious sexy face” when dancing, but often drop it briefly when they look at me or the other female customers. It’s very similar to when two CD/TS notice each other in public and exchange the “hey comrade” look. When I went to use the bathroom, the dancers in there would just say “hey” like talking to a familiar co-worker. I’m sure because it was a Friday night and a lot of part time girls showed up for the busy night so they don’t really know each other. Still, being able to blend in there was neat. Also luckily, the cigar and shot girls weren’t being very pushy with us. I assume their primary targets are the guys by themselves. All in all it was a lot more pleasant than I thought, basically a very relaxing lounge with a show.